“Every man can, if he so desires, become the sculptor of his own brain” – Santiago Ramon y Cajal (1852–1934)
Ever since I was four years old I’ve been cross-eyed (accommodative esotropia). My brain learned to suppress the image of one eye by turning the eye inwards. Over the years my visual situation changed and expensive mistakes were made. If you want to read the entire story click here. After the last surgery I had very little control over my eyes and they tended towards exotropia although that highly depended on the viewing direction. Bottom line: constant double vision, restrictions in gaze and considerable convergence insufficiency. An esotropic brain in an exotropic-ish body isn’t easy. Not workable, not livable, not good, …
Here’s a video I made on December 5th, 2011 showing how hard it was to converge my eyes. Not being able to merely converge while putting your full attention to the task is clearly going to ruin your every day vision, reading ability, energy levels and performance. How the hell did I graduate like this? At this point I was already in VT for a year and had already somewhat improved compared to my initial post-surgical starting position.
The second video was recorded on the 3rd of May, 2014. It’s still pretty hard to converge but there has been huge improvement as you can see. In another year’ll converge like it’s nothing. The year after that even better!
This is three years and four months into VT. It is still all hands on deck to finish the job but progress is obvious. My brain is changing and my eye muscles are recovering and stretching. The better I see, the safer I feel. The safer I feel, the better I see.